enter label: superchargers in the Healingvrse

& a nod to Nietzche and Thiel

Dear Companions,

There are moments here in the Healingvrse when the idea of retreating—of leaving society behind—feels not only appealing but almost necessary. This thought, sparked by the title of the book I’m currently reading by

Tao Lin

has dawdled in my mind. What if I just poured all my energy into writing a novel, away from the chaos, where I could dive deep into my own thoughts without distraction?

Yet equally natural, I return to work, this time with a renewed, sharpened mind, able to better identify opportunities, able to combat evil, determined not to be derailed by the allure of the Healingvrse, lessons on non-attachment, and healing quests—to absolutely not give in to the illness, so to speak.

It’s also natural that bitterness might creep in, and I might end up isolated in a cabin, like Nietzsche in the Swiss Alps, in the lush, quiet town of Sils-Maria, avoiding as much as possible the human aggravations on the nervous system (until I run into that unfortunate horse, of course).

Yet, it’s also natural I build the strongest family unit, recognizing how essential support is, no matter the sacrifices, influenced by a fertility-driven algorithm on X.

It feels inevitable, too, that I could go on to build the Healingvrse—a space where we expose our inner realms more deeply than social media allows today. But it’s just as possible that this idea will slip through my fingers, remain elusive, accelerated in part by memories of what underfunding (and soon, Artificial Intelligence) can do to one's ideas.

Somehow, all of these things are existing all at once, and a very disabled version of myself is trying to execute.

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What is truth, anyway?

Sometimes, I fear I won’t escape this pain until I’ve deciphered the right path. It feels like a choose-your-own-adventure story, except every wrong turn delivers an electric shock or a Zen master’s whip, as I sometimes call my condition.

Part of me is determined not to let this illness make any decisions for me. I don’t want it to dictate whether I have another child (and now age is competing) or become a successful deal maker. So then, another part of me wonders: Am I so focused on resisting my illness, that I’m missing the point of it?

Further, to cope, I have some ingenious methods. I lean into my introverted side, the one that doesn’t mind missing out, and suddenly loneliness becomes a treasure. Are these tricks? Or truths? It probably doesn’t matter if something good comes out of it.

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What am I supposed to do with these Healingvrse insights?

Then there are the doors this experience has opened for me. Take for example this half-baked writing that has saved me countless times—am I supposed to commit to it? Can it grow into something meaningful if I don’t push it to the forefront of my life? Should I reward it for keeping me from offing myself in the darkest hours, by making it who I am? Or is (mediocre) art just one of those gladiator tools needed for the colosseum, and otherwise silly when standing able bodied at a networking event?

Why isn’t the message clear to me, as it seems to be for so many others who, when faced with a crucible, choose a path with what appears to be forceful determination?

Or maybe that’s just how they tell it later, which is partly why I write here—to document the uncertainty of the journey.

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The Healingvrse is more concerned with how the inner world and outer world meet, rather than their separation, as the paradigm typically dictates.

Jody 2.3 hours into the Thiel conversation…

I’m obsessed with that intersection, as I hang on to it for dear life. Interestingly, I just came across a conversation between Peter Thiel and Joe Rogan that resonated with this idea. Thiel, a self-admitted materialist, discussed how internality can serve two roles: as a way to deal with the world and, alternatively, as a substitute for it. He pointed out how Woodstock, a symbol of spiritual (and drug-infused) quests, occurred just weeks after the Moon Landing—an event that marked a pinnacle of external achievement. And yet, despite that monumental step, we never returned to the moon. It’s as if the focus shifted inward, trading one kind of exploration for another.

internality (noun): The quality or state of being inwardly focused, emphasizing the inner world of thoughts, emotions, and subjective experiences over external reality.

Worth checking out the interview as it's triggering a lot of interesting conversations (amongst, as Grok, called us, mid-wits and VCs). In it, Theil also critiques the double-blind methodology, arguing it's flawed for MDMA trials because participants inevitably realize they've taken MDMA due to its strong effects. This, he believes, is why the FDA won't approve it. There’s more to this epic smackdown of millions in research, which also places the blame on the True Believer scientists and merits a separate post.

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Pros & Cons.

I can love both lives—the one before and the one after entering the Healingvrse. The fork in the road is the whole universe.

I also the risk of attempting jack of all trades and mastering none, especially with a mitochondrial disadvantage. And hell, maybe a fundamental failure in decision making is what got me in this mess in the first place. Unfortunately, life too eludes the double blinds.

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Supercharger strategies

I’ve come to see certain decisions as superchargers in this journey—choices that, despite my limitations, still drive progress. They are powerful, strategic moves that counterbalance the energy deficits I face, allowing me to move forward even when the walls try to cave in on me, daily.

For example, say I can’t exercise much, sticking to my migraine diet can do more than just manage my weight—it actively supports my healing. In this way, I’m achieving two goals with one action: maintaining my health without exercise and nurturing my body’s recovery. It’s a powerful choice, that kills two birds with one stone.

This makes me wonder: what are the SUPERCHARGERS for meaning? How can I blend the pursuit of inner and outer worlds so that I’m not forced to choose between them due to limited strength? Perhaps there are ways to align my actions with both, creating a synergy that fuels both my material and spiritual journeys. It’s a question I’m still exploring, but one that feels crucial.

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And then at the end of all that, I run into some classic existentialism—a deep understanding that perhaps none of these decisions matter.

And so, fatalism takes her seat at the table, to ease the pressure. After which, my mind can achieve a nice flat line, and I can do something stupid, like kill my supercharger and eat a bunch of carbs or scroll on Tik Tok.

Anyone out there thinking about this?

With much love from the Healingvrse,

Rebecca